that type of person

i'd like to be the type of person who is gracefully patient. instead i'm the type of person who has to fill any free time beyond capacity. i've taken to sewing, knitting, crafting necklaces, and other such time fillers.

i'd like to be the type of person who enjoys exercise and sticks to her best intentions and plans. instead i'm the type of person who would rather read to her 7 year old, be an active audience for her 13 year old's speech on none other than usher, assist her 14 year old with paper mache sugar skulls - and oh wow, you can make so many cool things with paper mache! in other words, do anything but exercise.

i'd like to be the type of person who doesn't waste any time on reality tv. instead i find myself terribly addicted to celebrity apprentice. not only that, but no matter how bad donald trump's hair is, i feel this odd connection to his soul, even through the tv. weird, huh?

i'd like to be the type of person who plans healthy snacks for the drive home and remembers to bring them with me in the morning on my way out the door. instead i find myself racing for the pringles and lemonade to tide me over until i get dinner made.

i'd like to be the type of person who can stand back and get amazing pictures at t-ball practice, since it is cay's first time on a team. instead i find myself jumping in and throwing grounders to each of the boys, trying my best to catch their return without getting hit in the face, and alas i have no glove. on the days when the weather is nice enough for them to take to the field and i'm not needed, i forget my camera.

i'd like to be the type of person who shows the utmost respect for my budget and takes the time to search the internetz for free items to upcycle and craft into wonderful gifts. instead i find myself driving with my husband out to various craft stores in search of the items i need *right now* to support my crafting and gifting endeavors.

i'd like to be the type of person who has the mental strength to wake earlier than the kids in the morning and have some reflective time and get myself charged and ready to go for the day. instead i am that mom that waits for little feet to come into my room, crawl in bed with me and snuggle for 10 more minutes while my husband makes coffee and brings it to me in bed. and then i need just 10 more minutes.

i work hard, i play with my kids, i dance with my husband, i read when i can, i craft all the time, i learn new things and teach them to others, and i'm very often too tired to be that type of person... i am just me.